Writing and editing have been at a bit of a low the past couple of weeks, but I’m hoping that things are now looking up and I have my mojo back. I keep telling myself that I have and it has been giving me little bursts of motivation.
It has been busy at work, just lots of changes and bad feelings due a new manager. There is a very clear divide among staff, a lot of bitching, tears and frustration, but on the plus side, my contract is getting made permanent (but shh, because I’m not supposed to tell anyone ;-)). I worked a barbeque yesterday and have been feeling it today (I almost fell over when I got out of bed this morning which for some bizarre reason I can’t stop myself from telling everyone!). Barbeques are always quite fun to work despite needing a shower and face mask as soon as I get home (yesterday was even worse as the wind kept changing direction and blowing the smoke right in our faces), but they take a little while to get into a momentum as each one is so different!
Like I said before, editing is at a bit of a low. Partly struggling getting into the right frame of mind since Camp NaNo, partly work, partly feeling generally down about it and feeling like I haven’t got any support, which is rubbish, I know, but it hasn’t helped. Last week I typed up the changes I had made prior to camp and over the weekend (and today) I have been reading through it all and making further editions and notes. I have revised my plan slightly, although still hoping to finish at the end of June (although, realistically, this will probably be mid-July, especially as we have a big event on at work at the end of June that will no doubt be veryyyyyyy stressful!). This week I am going to work on parts 1 and 2 and get them to a point where I am more-or-less happy with them before moving onto part 3 next week. This will take a lot more planning and work as I want to rewrite most of it – this has also been part of my demotivation as I am dreading it! – but I think my revised hours at work will make it easier. I now have equal time before work as afterwards so I can use the morning to write and the afternoon to edit. Anyway, parts 1 and 2 are just about there. Hopefully I will finish part 1 tomorrow and be able to concentrate on part 2 the rest of the week!
So, hopefully everything will be in a readable state by July. I text my sister today asking her if she’d like to read and critique. I know some people advise against using friends and families to read through but I would rather they did first just to ease me in gently! When it comes to taking criticism, even if constructive, it can make me a bit down so I’d rather hear it from friends and family first! I have a few people I want to approach first who are friends I know will be honest and constructive but not TOO harsh. I know harsh is good but I don’t want it straightaway! I also have my brother’s girlfriend on the potential list – she is an avid reader, particularly of fantasy, and very honest and opinionated. I think she’d make a great beta reader.
Anyway, I better check on my rice pudding and then crack on with a bit more work. Still have a couple of blog posts I want to write this week but not sure if that will happen!